Tree
People call me “Tree”…
I had dated 5 girls when I was in Pre-u. There’s one girl who I love a lot but never dared to go after. She didn’t have a pretty face, or good figure, nor an outstanding charm. She was just a very ordinary girl. I liked her. I really liked her. I like her innocence, her frankness, her intelligence and her fragility. Reason for not going after her was because I fell somebody so ordinary like her was not a good match for me. I was also afraid that after were all together all the feelings would vanish. I was afraid other’s gossip would hurt her.
I felt that if she were my girl, she’d be mine ultimately and didn’t have to give up anything for her.
The last reason, made her accompanying me for three years. She watched me chase other girls, and I have made her cry for three years. She was a good actress and me a demanding director.
When I kissed my second girlfriend, she bumped into us; she was embarrassed but smiled and said “Go on!” before running off.
The next day, her eyes were swollen like a walnut. I didn’t want to know what caused her cry. Later that day, I returned from soccer training to get something and watched her cry in the classroom for an hour or so.
My 4th girlfriend didn’t like her. There was once when both of them quarreled. I know that base on her character; she’s not the type that will start off the quarrel. But I still sided my girlfriend. I shouted at her and ignored her feelings and walked off with my gf.
The next day, she was laughing and joining with me like nothing happened. I know she was hurt, but she didn’t know deep down inside, I was hurt too.
When I broke up with my 5th gf, I ask her out. Later that day, I told her I had something to tell her. I told her about my breakup. Coincidentally, she has something to tell me too, about her getting together. I knew who the guy was his pursuit to her had been the talk of the school.
I didn’t show her my heartache, just smiles and best wishes. Once I reached home, I couldn’t breathe, tears rolled and I broke down.
How many times have I seen her cry for the man who didn’t acknowledge her presence.
During graduation, I read a sms in my hp. It said,
“LEAF’s departure is because of WIND’s pursuit or because TREE didn’t ask her to stay.”
People call me “leaf”…
During the tree years of pre-u, I was on very close terms with a guy as buddy kind. But when he had his 1st gf, I learnt a feeling I never should have learnt – jealousy. Sourness to the extreme limit. They were only together for two months.
When they broke up, I hid my happiness. But after a month, he got together with another girl.
I liked him and I know he liked me.
But why won’t he pursue me. Since he loves me, why didn’t he make the first move. Whenever he had a new gf, my heart would hurt.
After sometime, I began to suspect that this was one-sided love. If he didn’t like me, why did he treat me so well? It’s beyond what you normally do for a friend.
I know his likes, his habits. But his feelings towards me I can never figure out. You can’t expect me a girl to ask him. Despite that, I still wanted to be by his side.
Care for him, accompany him, and love him. Hoping that one day, he will come to love me.
Because of this, I waited for him. The pain, the dilemma accompanied me for three years.
At the end of my third year, a junior pursues me. Everyday he pursues me. He is like the cool and gentle wind, trying to blow off a leaf from a tree.
In the end, I realized that I wanted to give this wind a small footing in my heart. I know the wind will bring the lead to a better land.
Finally, leaf left the tree, but the tree only smiled and didn’t ask me to stay.
“LEAF’s departure is because of WIND’s pursuit or because TREE didn’t ask her to stay.”
People call me “Wind”…
Because I like a girl called leaf. Because she’s so dependent on tree so I have to be a gust wind.
A “Wind” that will blow her away.
When I 1st met her, it was 1 month after I transfer to the new school.
I saw a petite person looking at my seniors and me playing soccer. During ECA time, she will always be sitting there. Be it alone or with her friends looking at him. When he talks with girls, there’s a jealousy in her eyes. When he looked at her, there’s a smile in her eyes. Looking at her became my habit. Just like she looks at him.
One day she didn’t appear. I felt something ammised. I can’t explain the feeling except it’s a kind of uneasiness. The senior was also not there as well. I went to their classroom, hid outside and saw my senior scolding her. Tears in her eyes while she left.
The next day, I saw her at her usual place, looking at him. I walked over and smiled at her. Took a note and gave to her. She was surprised, and looked at me, smiles and accepts the note.
The next day, she appeared and passes me a note and left.
“Leaf’s heart is too heavy and wind couldn’t blow her away.” “It’s not that leaf heart is too heavy, it’s because leaf never want to leaf tree.”
I replied her note with this statement and slowly she started to talk to me and accepts my presents and phone calls.
“I know the person she loves is not me. But I have this perseverance that one day I will make her like me”.
Within 4 months, I have declared my love for her no less than 2o times. Every time, she will divert away the topic. But I never give up. If I decide, I want her to be mine. I will definitely use all means to win her, over.
I can’t remember how many times I declared my love to her. Although I know she will try to divert, but I still bear a small ray of hope. Hoping she will agree to be my gf.
I didn’t hear any reply from her over the phone. I asked, “What are you doing? How come you didn’t want to reply?”
She said, “I’m nodding my head.” “Ah!” I couldn’t believe my ears. “I’m nodding my head” she replied loudly.
I hang up the phone, quickly changed and took a taxi and rush to her place and press her doorbell. During the moment she opens the door, I hugged her tightly.
“LEAF’s departure is because of WIND’s pursuit or because TREE didn’t ask her to stay.”
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