ONE LAST CRY

I can not evade melancholy

            Nor can I obliterate woe

For I stand abandoned, wondering

At such desolation in life

I have always dreamt of having you

Forever in my possession

But reality bares affliction

You’ll sty in my dreams

So I ended up asking why

Everything seems to fall through

I have to let go of my only you

And risk a painful goodbye

And this one thing I’ll do

One last thing that I’ll mean so much to me

Before I pick up the pieces

And mend a broken me

I’m giving up my tears, my sigh

The memories and my one last cry.

DMB 143

Matagal kong hinintay ang

Dyip patungong langit.

Nang dumating na’y, pasakay

Pa lamang ako. Siya nama’y

Papalabas na.

Nagkatitigan kami at kanyang

Nasabi: “O, ikaw naman, dika

Pwede sumabit.” Nagkatinginan kami

Sa haba ng isang gabing saglit.

Umupo ako at niyakap ng titig

Ang paglalaro ng alam at agos

Sa kanyang buhok.

Umandar ang dyip.

At agad kong nasambit:

PARA!

Kabababa lang ng langit.

FROZEN

When I shunned away from feeling

And gripped myself into oblivion,

Closed my doors from emotions

And imprisoned myself into the cold…

Empty…

Masking smiles of a lifeless façade

Pretending to be happy.

Sure you are…

Confronted with trouble I cannot deny

That even comfort I try to find.

A life in solitude, I try to fill

This loneliness I cannot hide…

At night I lie wide awake at the open sky,

Wondering what it’s like to be held in the arms,

Whenever you are bleeding and broken,

To be told you’re safe when you’re in pain,

To be tamed like a lioness or stallion in the wild.

How would it feel like to be open?

To open oneself to life;

To never mind the hurt and never pry on doubt

When someone tries to unlock my heart.

How would it feel to be free?

Free to love and be loved,

To just simply let go like the birds soaring high.

Would it kill me to try?

Just once… just once…

To satisfy this hunger for love and trust;

To free myself of this longing,

Of these walls that barricades my heart,

To be cherished, that I would sacrifice anything,

To rest this weary soul and kindred spirit

In the hands of the one I love,

To dry these tears once and for all…

And to be able to speak those words I always ignored…

“I Love you.”